Yet another post today.
I feel the urge to write something, even though I am not quite sure what this whole feeling is all about. I have been wanting to take care of this website for months, but for some reason I kept postponing the task until it became one of those dusty objects in the corner of your room that you barely acknowledge. You know it’s there, you know you should take care of it, but there’s not much you can do until one day you wake up and you decide to go on a cleaning spree.
Yes, that’s exactly what I want to talk about: dust. Inner dust.
This specific type of dust can penetrate into your soul and has the ability to cloud your thinking. It is not real dust, of course.
Have you ever felt so anxious and confused, but as much as you tried to find the source of your trouble, you couldn’t actually tell what was making you feel so uncomfortable?
Traumatic life events and stressful times can of course have a confusing, toxic effect on your mind, but the dusty feeling I mentioned is way more subtle. It’s made out of all the junk you have inside, your negative thoughts, your concerns, your negative memories…basically, soul dust bunnies.
You start feeling tired, lazy, depressed. If you need to make a decision, it takes you centuries and every option seems so confusing you just feel like giving up altogether. Have you ever felt like that? Then maybe your soul is starving. I remember reading this concept for the first time on The Power of your Spirit, by Sonia Choquette. I totally identified with her description.
I believe our soul, our energy or any other name you want to use for this part of ourselves, needs to be taken care of just as much as our physical body. We always make sure we drink and eat and sleep to keep our physical body alive, but can we really say the same about our soul?
Over the last six months I’ve realized my soul was starving. I was getting out of an awful year full of problems and heartbreaks, I was constantly worrying about my future and I felt deprived of my energies. I tried to stay positive and perhaps I got that feeling going for a few hours before I finally surrendered and cried on a daily basis, uncapable of getting myself out of that mood.
That’s when I decided to take an extreme break to nurture my soul and it was the best decision.It was during my break that I finally understood that my soul was in starvation mode. I was afraid, jumpy and hurt. Every little thing annoyed me or affected me on a deeper level. Therefore, step by step,I decided to get myself out of it and started to open up to all the food for the soul I could provide myself with. Walks in nature, exploring many different cities, meditations, long baths, hiking, new foods and most importantly, getting out of my comfort zone.
I actually have a list of soul-filling activities which can be done on a daily basis in order to prevent soul-starvation. I will write this list in a separate post and I will get more specific, if you wish.
I have so much to say about this topic. I’ll probably write more about this. If you want to share a similar experience or you found this post useful, please leave a comment and I will be delighted to read it.
Take great care of yourself, you come first.
Love and Light