Inner dust&Soul starvation Part 1

hurt3Yet another post today.
I feel the urge to write something, even though I am not quite sure what this whole feeling is all about. I have been wanting to take care of this website for months, but for some reason I kept postponing the task until it became one of those dusty objects in the corner of your room that you barely acknowledge. You know it’s there, you know you should take care of it, but there’s not much you can do until one day you wake up and you decide to go on a cleaning spree.

Yes, that’s exactly what I want to talk about: dust. Inner dust.
This specific type of dust can penetrate into your soul and has the ability to cloud your thinking. It is not real dust, of course.
Have you ever felt so anxious and confused, but as much as you tried to find the source of your trouble, you couldn’t actually tell what was making you feel so uncomfortable?
Traumatic life events and stressful times can of course have a confusing, toxic effect on your mind, but the dusty feeling I mentioned is way more subtle. It’s made out of all the junk you have inside, your negative thoughts, your concerns, your negative memories…basically, soul dust bunnies.
You start feeling tired, lazy, depressed. If you need to make a decision, it takes you centuries and every option seems so confusing you just feel like giving up altogether. Have you ever felt like that? Then maybe your soul is starving. I remember reading this concept for the first time on The Power of your Spirit, by Sonia Choquette. I totally identified with her description.

I believe our soul, our energy or any other name you want to use for this part of ourselves, needs to be taken care of just as much as our physical body. We always make sure we drink and eat and sleep to keep our physical body alive, but can we really say the same about our soul? 
Over the last six months I’ve realized my soul was starving. I was getting out of an awful year full of problems and heartbreaks, I was constantly worrying about my future and I felt deprived of my energies. I tried to stay positive and perhaps I got that feeling going for a few hours before I finally surrendered and cried on a daily basis, uncapable of getting myself out of that mood.
That’s when I decided to take an extreme break to nurture my soul and it was the best decision.It was during my break that I finally understood that my soul was in starvation mode. I was afraid, jumpy and hurt. Every little thing annoyed me or affected me on a deeper level. Therefore, step by step,I decided to get myself out of it and  started to open up to all the food for the soul I could provide myself with. Walks in nature, exploring many different cities, meditations, long baths, hiking, new foods and most importantly, getting out of my comfort zone.
I actually have a list of soul-filling activities which can be done on a daily basis in order to prevent soul-starvation. I will write this list in a separate post and I will get more specific, if you wish.
I have so much to say about this topic. I’ll probably write more about this. If you want to share a similar experience or you found this post useful, please leave a comment and I will be delighted to read it.
Take great care of yourself, you come first.
Love and Light


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Hello! I am Kiki and I make ASMR videos on youtube. My aim is to relax you and tingle you! I am a translator who also happens to write a lot. Being a writer has always been my lifelong dream. I am also very fond of languages. I hope you will have fun on my website! Love and hugs Kiki

5 thoughts on “Inner dust&Soul starvation Part 1

  1. This post made a lot of sense for me. I loved your “inner dust” analogy, brilliant! You are so right about the need to get out of our comfort zones. Doing the same things all the time makes your vision become narrow, your senses less keen, with a growing feeling of unfulfilment, and irritability, like you described so vividly.

    I had an unhappy year following a very stressful move to a new town, which I did not know well and where I knew almost nobody for miles! My social anxiety came back too.

    ASMR channels like yours have helped me so much with relaxation, clearing my mind and purging negative emotions. Feeling inspired, I recently decided to break my pattern and do something different. I signed up for an outdoor learning course where one day a week I join a group where we go into a large park and learn to connect with nature, discovering the plants, trees, insects and animals, and learning bush crafts, foraging and survival skills. Plus the fun of meeting new people of course!

    Doing things like this, as well as travelling of course, definitely nourishes and re-invigorates the soul, opens the mind and boosts the endorphins in the body which gives a feeling of well being.

    This is great advice – for people feeling at a junction in their lives where they are not going in any particular direction. Get out of that comfort zone. Shake off the dust!

    Thanks Kiki for the wonderful article and I would definitely be interested in more like it!

    Peter G


    1. Thank you so much for sharing your experience, dear Peter! The group you joined sounds so fun and it’s the perfect activity. I hope you’ll feel better and better ❤ I'm so glad my videos helped, you deserve all the best! I will make sure I write more about this!
      Happy Halloween!


  2. È bellissimo quello che hai scritto ed è doloroso perché veritiero. Mi piacerebbe leggere la lista che hai scritto. Secondo me saresti in grado di gestire meravigliosamente un blog su Tumblr!


  3. These are words of wisdom. I completely agree that everyone has a soul, or the ‘human spirit’, that pushes us on through life. When it is run down, ‘depleted of energy’, I believe that is when a person feels ailments such as depression, anxiety etc., in a far more sensitive and prolonged way than others resulting in labels placed upon them based on societal norms in what they are going through. Not to downplay a persons life event that can be the cause of an ailment but if the souls energy, which I believe is connected to a state of mind created by the brain, stays depleted, the ailment will eventually take over and all could be lost. Grieving, self-pity, or whatever the case may be for someone, is actually a positive step in healing one’s state of mind but staying there, getting ‘stuck in a rut’ is not. That is why your thoughts on this are so important Kiki. You provide a down to earth solution that all can take advantage of. You are positive living proof that people must feed their soul if it is ‘feeling ill’. If the brain is not nourished, a persons state of mind will follow and the body may die. It may not end in a burial but it certainly isn’t living either. I’ve said this before to you and it will never change, your mind is a beautiful thing Kiki. Thank you for helping others regain their humanity through your gifted insight. Please continue feeding my soul. 🙂


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